Description
Introducing a radical healing approach for the adult symptoms of Childhood PTSD—from the creator of the Crappy Childhood Fairy program and YouTube channel.
Conventional trauma treatments (talk therapy and medication) simply don’t work for many trauma survivors, and now we know why. Researchers have identified the core symptom that drives most other symptoms—neurological dysregulation. It’s an injury to your nervous system triggered by abuse and neglect in childhood, and it can profoundly impact your physical health, damage your ability to learn and focus, and hold you back from forming caring relationships.
The good news is that healing is possible, and in Re-Regulated, author Anna Runkle (aka the Crappy Childhood Fairy) shows you how. Chapter by chapter, she teaches you practical steps to identify signs of dysregulation, quickly re-regulate, and then stay regulated more of the time. Drawing from her own experience healing Childhood PTSD symptoms, and her decades of work coaching and mentoring thousands of others working to heal from abuse and neglect in the past, Anna helps you calm triggers, break out of isolation, and change the self-defeating behaviors that are so common for traumatized people. From a regulated state, things can move forward rapidly in every area of your life so you can become your full and real self at last.
You’ll learn:
· Practical techniques to release trauma-driven thinking and strengthen focus
· Principles to overcome trauma-driven thinking and behaviors that hold you back
· Strategies to manage overwhelming emotions before they hurt relationships
· A process to build your capacity to connect with other people
· A “Daily Practice” to help you start each day regulated and energized
Anna’s tools can be used on your own or as a complement to professional therapy. With her help, you can achieve calmness and clarity you never imagined possible.
House of Charn (verified owner) –
Spend one minute watching any single video on Anna Runkle’s YouTube channel (Crappy Childhood Fairy) and you will likely see exactly what is so special and compelling about her.
Even when the circumstances are nothing like my own, when Anna pulls out her pencil and starts annotating a letter received from someone hurting or wrestling with their choices, it feels incredibly uplifting. Because the person who wrote the letter is being seen and validated by a compassionate authority. Who can help. And who is sad and angry at the damage, past and present, done by flawed individuals whose parenting was marked by neglect or abuse.
The Daily Practice that Anna Runkle offers is simple, effective, and affordable as pen and paper.
I’m so thrilled to, at last, have her wisdom organized and condensed into an Audiobook.
And so grateful to imagine the oceans of good heading out to help people who will one day trace when life began to be better back to finding out about this book.
wildfire98601 (verified owner) –
Thank u for sharing your years of knowledge with the rest of us!! I discovered u on you tube this last year and have been implementing your daily practice. I sleep so much better and my brain is finally calming down, after years and years of feeling like I am on a hamster wheel!!
I don’t have time every single day to write my resentments and fears, but pick right up where I left off. It is progress!! 🙂 The meditation is getting lots easier, too. I’d never given myself that type of time before, as silly as that sounds.
I’m anxious to get thru the rest of your book!! I have shared your info with 3 other loved ones, whom I feel could truly benefit! Thank for changing my life!! 🙂
Shandy (verified owner) –
“Re-Regulated” by Anna Runkle is a profound journey into the heart of healing from childhood trauma. With a compassionate voice, Runkle offers a beacon of hope for those who have suffered from the long-term effects of early abuse and neglect. The book is not just a narrative; it’s a practical guide filled with actionable advice and tools designed to foster self-regulation and recovery. Readers will find solace in Runkle’s own story of overcoming despair, as she shares her methods for battling the dysregulation, disconnection, and self-defeating behaviors that often follow traumatic experiences. This book is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and a valuable resource for anyone looking to navigate the complex path of healing from childhood PTSD.
On a more personal note : my mother and I pre-ordered this book as a tool for me on my self healing journey. We ordered the book the end of June, my mom passed away on July 3rd. This book has brought more to me than I can ever begin to express. Thank you
well read (verified owner) –
Anna Runkle is a pioneer in helping those with PTSD, esp from childhood. Nothing made sense to me until I discovered her YouTube channel “Crappy Childhood Fairy”. It turned my life around.
One of her methods to stop your brain from scrambling is called the Daily Practice. I was really skeptical. I’m not a “follower” until one day when I thought I had gone nuts. Desperate, I tried the Daily Practice. OMG! My mind calmed down and I had a better perspective on what the problem was – of course, it wasn’t what I thought it was. But being re-regulated helped my brain be more at peace. Though my meditation time needs some work, I’m doing the Daily Practice once a day and working myself up to more time in meditation. I’m not as disregulated as I was initially, but if I have nothing to work on (my brain is calm) I just practice the meditation part. Thank you Anna Runkle for saving the lives of this of us struggling to make sense of the world.
nnuview (verified owner) –
I have only read part of the book so far. This book really speaks to me as i was a child that dealt with PTSD.
Kevins Keep (verified owner) –
This is such a historically personal, life changing story. More than “just a book”. Sudden death of my beloved spouse threw my heart wide open to heal. In the many long days and even longer nights all alone I became aware that I had been left a unique legacy to heal if I just kept seeking the healthier answers. I wrapped the powerful love we had shared around me and found this woman named Anna Runkle and her podcasts [CPTSD} named The Crappy Childhood Fairy. Seemed safe enough with a name like that! I learned my childhood traumas, abuse, neglect – just the evil people who hurt me as that child – was not my fault folks. My adult triggers are what stem from my early traumas. I watched. I cried. I mourned. Over 3 years now everyone. This path for ourselves is not easy yet it is just for me now as if you chose – it can be for just you.. As Ms. Anna [my liberty here] has shared the really simple process of the Daily Practice and meditation where my brain gets to rewire, heal and I step into my days now with kindness, self care and compassion for others. A shout out to Rachel also. Amazing gifts TCCF and all of the community as we share, smile, heal, sleep, trust, prosper, pray – just being brave as we DP everyday. Thank you and Bless’ to all. KevinsKeep.
Kaitlyn M. (verified owner) –
I watch Anna’s YouTube channel occasionally. My fiancée really enjoys her work, so I told her about this book after I had received Ann’a newsletter featuring her new book. We currently share the book.
I have gotten to the part where Anna shares her technique for conquering anxiety and resentment. As I practice the techniques, I feel like my spirit is slowly being lifted, old thoughts of what I used to think or be like are coming back to me. I’m feeling more love towards my partner, I feel myself wanting to work with my hands again, and my heart feels lighter.
I’m not done with the book and i haven’t done the technique for a long time but i can feel things changing in my mind.
Thank you for sharing this with us Anna.
Jennifer Collier (verified owner) –
I have been a YouTube follower of the Crappy Childhood Fairy since 2020, when I began my healing journey from MUCH childhood trauma (sexual abuse, abandonment, neglect, substance abuse) Watching Anna’s videos and now reading her book have explained years of things I had struggled with and had accepted as just part of who I was. I never understood the impact that childhood trauma played in how I related as an adult. This awareness that presents itself in this book is the biggest stepping stone in the right direction for healing. Anna helps her readers through her own experiences to understand, identify and re-regulate their bodies without costly dr visits or medications. The methods taught in her book CHANGED MY LIFE! I can now identify when I am becoming triggered or dis regulated and I have the tools AND knowledge to re regulate. I highly recommend this book to anyone dealing with the after effects of childhood trauma.
CMHC (verified owner) –
A game changer for CPTSD. Many of us have been failed by traditional therapies, and we can’t just avoid all our triggers. Anna teaches us to recognize triggers, take responsibility, prioritize them by severity, and come up with strategies for calming and dealing with them in different ways.
She also explains strategies for staying regulated, like the Daily Practice (private writing and a 20 min meditation), a morning routine, boundaries, etc. Personally, a morning Daily Practice is sufficient for me.
I recommend the hard copy version of this book (or downloading worksheets if available?) because the journaling exercises are detailed and very worthwhile.
Wiley Bloom (verified owner) –
This book, and Anna before the book was published, has been the key that unlocked my healing, after 57 years of looking for it. CPTSD is in fact real (I believe there are plans to include in the DSM) and traditional methods simply don’t get to it. Through her own experience, informed by the work of scholars such as Pete Walker, Anna actually discovered this methodology in service of her own healing from childhood trauma. Because it was so powerful for her she set out to share it with others, and I’m so grateful that she did.
If it isn’t obvious yet I highly recommend this book. But I also strongly suggest that you try her methodology as is, without skimming the book or tweaking the methodology, if you really want to explore what it might do for you.
Peace Finder (verified owner) –
I read Re-Regulated with a TON of hesitation and a bit of fear. I was afraid that Ann Rundle was going to push me to re-live and remember. Instead, when I finally started reading, I could not put it down until I had completed all of the journal prompts and begun the Daily Practice. I’m not one to be easily led into practices because I thought I’d tried them all, decades of talk therapy, various meds, etc… none really enabling the change that I sought. This practice is different. It works for me. Today on my run I felt free and in touch with my best self. It’s not just the Daily Practice, it’s Anne Runkle’s voice and suggestions and perspectives that are beginning to significantly move me out of disregulation and disconnect and into being ALIVE. Truly grateful.
Edited to Update one Month after using the Daily Practice every day: In some respects it’s such a simple thing, but after decades of therapy and meds and ….. finally this book offers something that is really changing my life. Even after a badly dysreglated event yesterday I was able to re-regulate using the daily practice. THANK YOU
Anna LeBaron (verified owner) –
I’m Anna LeBaron, author of “The Polygamist’s Daughter: A Memoir,” and one of the subjects of the Hulu documentary, “Daughters of the Cult.”
On Nov. 13, 2024 Audible recommended the Crappy Childhood Fairy’s new book,
“Re-Regulated: Set Your Life Free from Childhood PTSD and the Trauma-Driven Behaviors That Keep You Stuck.”
I downloaded it and began listening immediately based on the title/subtitle alone.
I began her *Daily Practice* that day and have been engaging with it ever since.
Note: I recently missed two days in a row of doing *The Daily Practice* and realized that it works so much better when I take (or make) the time to do it, and that it’s especially important to do so on the days when I feel like I don’t have the time to do so.
What I’ve discovered by doing *The Daily Practice* is that the time I take to do this is an investment of time that pays dividends the rest of the day. I’m actually GIVING MYSELF MORE TIME each day by taking the time to do it.
I recommend both her book and
*The Daily Practice*
if you had a crappy childhood,
if you struggle with mental health issues,
if you want relief from overthinking, anxiety, etc.
MJKE (verified owner) –
This book is eminently readable and so very helpful. I’ve been doing Anna Runkle’s Daily Practice, following her YouTube videos, and been part of her online community for 3 years now. Despite being so familiar with Anna’s teachings, I still found the book gripped my attention and taught me even more. There’s something about her manner of expression and her caring, as well as the content and the method itself, that always meet me wherever I am on my ongoing healing journey and provide even more insights and ways to grow – by doing the DP and the suggested writing exercises. Reading is great for learning but not enough for change. This is literally the only work, whether therapy or self-work, that has ever really succeeded for me. Thank you again and always, Anna.
Jennifer (verified owner) –
After YEARS of not understanding the spiraling Dysregulation that comes with early childhood trauma, Anna’s book helped me to understand in simple terms the science behind it. This book is relatable and extremely helpful. I am not a typical “self-help” book reader- this is different. Not psychobabble – REAL, Relatable explanations and Practical tools that I could use immediately. My life is truly better because of this book and I expect I will continue to heal and grow because of it! Additionally, I’ve joined Anna’s website “Crappy Childhood Fairy” to continue my journey. Thank you, Anna!
Joann Parente (verified owner) –
What a wonderful book! I was introduced to Anna’s YouTube channel CRAPPY CHILDHOOD FAIRY this past summer & was immediately following her after viewing one of the topics she specializes in~CPTSD…While she isn’t a professional psychologist or psychiatrist by any educational authority-she does in fact have decades of experience & research on this topic extensively…I was fortunate to have found her when I did because I learned she was releasing a book in October 2024! I pre-ordered mine & once it arrived I finished reading it in 3 days…I cannot recommend this book enough! The entire book is layed out in a very organized fashion (step by step) and is a pretty easy read for all intensive purposes…This book is helping me learn more about myself, how I got here and how to correct certain thoughts that hinder me so that I can express myself in a healthier manner…If you or someone you know might have CPTSD -this book will give you the knowledge to put you on a better path to healing! My advice? “Add to cart” ❤️🩹
Claire (verified owner) –
This book is a healing path to living well in life with childhood trauma. Finding “The Crappy Childhood Fairy” on You Tube and now book in hand has been THE most helpful healing tool that has brought me age 52 out of 25 years of active CPTSD. The Daily Practice and Anna’s voice, words and authentic wisdom are compassionate and bring strength and power into a remembered program of how to be the real you. Who you are really, your true self experiencing life in the now, re-regulated. Beyond pervasive addiction and dread and hopelessness. Practical daily tools to strengthen you each and every day to maintain in this “crazy world”. Do yourself a favor and let go of these struggles that are now name able and healable by buying this book and listening to Anna Runkle, “The Crappy Childhood Fairy”. Truly a bright light into a new wonderful dawn beyond the darkness and heaviness of struggle for me. Anna is a God send.
I am grateful.
Tricia J. Collins (verified owner) –
This book has been life changing for me, along with her healing trauma course. The Daily Practice has helped me to manage my CPTSD on a daily basis so well that I was able to discontinue seeing a therapist. Anna makes herself very available on YouTube, and through her courses, webinars, and personal/group chats. All of this combined with her book has empowered me to change my current day life, and to leave the past in the past, where it belongs. She is smart, articulate. And has overcome unbelievable trauma in her own life. Thank you so much Anna for helping me to find this freedom.
D. M. Haynes (verified owner) –
Give me the short version or at least make it interesting to read. Anna’s book is both. She is the real deal and I completely trust her information and her intentions.
Kristine F. Shields (verified owner) –
I read the book with a dear friend. We were able to have a dozen light bulb moments as we read and talked.
Hurt is real and mortality is a fantastic journey of finding a perspective that heals what gets broken. The daily practice brings God’s help to a healthy perspective. Re-Regulated helped me to recognize the part that neurological pathways played into the internal dialogue that can hide barriers to healing. Anna’s book is kind, it is funny and was like a breath of clean fresh air after a dust storm.
Mary K Boyer (verified owner) –
I cried a lot working through this book, but I am also feeling much better on a physical, mental, and spiritual level. Within a couple of weeks I cleared out old thoughts and did something I thought id never be able to do. I’ve leapt into the future with more confidence and I know things can only get better. Let yourself cry, if necessary, and journal your way to a better future. I’ve stuck with it because I feel so much better! Thank you Anna for writing this book and your YouTube channel!
Josiah Hooker (verified owner) –
Excellent book that truly helps you to APPLY healing methods – wow!! Wish I’d had it years ago – could have saved soooo much turmoil in life… Tysm, Anna!!! I can’t actually thank her enough. Can’t wait for the next book.😁
Diane Overcash (verified owner) –
I found a lot of value in this book. I have used the suggested practice in the book for about two months and I find it very helpful. I do what works and this works.
Dee Adams (verified owner) –
I believe there are some people, books, speeches, and events that impact this entire world because enough prayers went up. In my opinion, this book, this woman, these teachings are a gift. Several decades of confusion, struggle, and failure is what characterized my life, even when it seemed I was the epitome of success. Within a matter of months I have seen true and qualitative change.
Like the hygienic advances of washing and having clean water to modern society, this simple method needs to be embraced and taught in every home, school, and church. This may very well be the answer to our mental health crisis.
JKL (verified owner) –
I have spent years regurgitating the details of multiple traumatic events in my past. I had completely lost faith altogether in the psychiatric profession because I never experienced anything remotely resembling lasting relief from trauma symptoms. I have been in & out of therapeutic settings since the early 80s! I did not seek relief in medication bc I have witnessed so many people around me just getting worse or staying the same on the next ‘best thing’ RX.
I knew there had to be better answers & a better way to deal with the pervasive cognitive/emotional/relational struggles I have faced all my life due to multiple childhood traumatic experiences (8 out of 10 on the ACEs). I had no name for what I was battling & none of the convenient diagnoses ‘du jour’ seemed to fit the fact pattern. I was even told that perhaps I needed to be tested for Asperger’s when that was the in-vogue “designer diagnosis”. At least the idea of my brain being wired differently and the concept of “neurodivergence” was closer to the “mark” than any other diagnosis I had received. That was 10 years ago!
So, for years, I could find no satisfying answers, no lasting relief and I experienced no forward progress in my life. I was just ricocheting from one triggering event/job/relationship after another and in a perpetual recovery state from the fallout of the less than optimal consequences of my amygdala-hijacked hyperbolic responses to such events–things other people would deem “just normal life”, well, except for surviving a devastating hurricane as an adult & contracting long-term treatment resistant Lyme disease that nearly disabled me (another story).
And then, one day in April 2024, I stumbled on a Crappy Childhood Fairy video. I almost dismissed it. In 20 minutes, I had all the answers I had been seeking for over 40 years!.I then began to voraciously consume every CCF video and everything I could find CPTSD-related. It was the most helpful life-altering revelation ever.
I can’t tell you how many hours and how much money I have spent in support groups and talking to every kind of therapist in every healing modality you can imagine. None of it helped me.
Arguably, it made me worse, bc having to continue to talk about the traumas kept REINFORCING those neural pathways. It makes absolute perfect sense that early trauma can severely hinder a child’s neurological development. Now that I finally have a working problem definition that fits the fact pattern, real healing can begin. I knew, in my case, that meds weren’t the answer for me personally. That they would provide temporary relief but never resolve the underlying problems. I knew there was something “structural” that needed to be repaired (brain wiring!).
Thank you Anna, for all your efforts! I now finally have the clarity to focus my time & energy on that which will provide permanent relief–on becoming Re-regulated!
The first step I have taken is to implement the Daily Practice. That alone has provided some relief since I made that commitment.. I’m also delving into DBT and ACT as well at this point as well. Thank you!
Jeanine (verified owner) –
Great book learned a lot it’s been extremely important to finally understand why I am the way I am
Debora (verified owner) –
I’m a 69 year old woman and I’ve suffered with Cptsd all of my life. I’ve done counseling and therapy… and have read almost every self help book out there that deals with this issue. This book is the last book I will ever buy because it works! I’ve followed the Crappy Childhood Fairy for many years because she has walked in my shoes and knows what it’s like. I use this book, the 12 step program ( for Overeaters Anonymous) and my Bible. That’s it. The past several months have been the most centered, sane, and serene days of my life! Buy this book. Do the exercises. You’ll see change. (And consider following the 12 steps.)
Eric D (verified owner) –
I love this book and Anna’s daily practice has helped me a ton.
Anna explains the process of writing out your fears and resentments…
and how getting them out of your head and onto paper helps
a person to deal with things in a calm matter in real life.
Her youtube channel and podcast are amazing too!!!
Lori (verified owner) –
When you are having brain fog you need a guide and this is that for me! I recommend for all individuals with trauma of any kind.
Susan D. (verified owner) –
Ms.Runkle walks her talk. She is open and transparent in her own healing journey, and inspires the reader to tackle their own path to a better, more regulated life.
Juan Luis Achirica (verified owner) –
Anna is amazing! Her book is full of information I have never read or heard before and it all makes so much sense now!
You will be happy you bought this book!
Lauren Luedke (verified owner) –
I’m in my mid 30s, suffer from anxiety, and a host of other symptoms that I now understand are, indeed, a result of CPTSD and developmental attachment trauma. I feel like Anna introduced me to myself for the first time and then explained me to me. I’ve worked with therapists that have helped me in my healing journey, but I’ve never had such good results as I have after starting the Daily Practice. I legit told my therapist today about this book and said I was worried the night and day difference in my life was too good to be true! She congratulated me on finding a source of help that I can use more often than our monthly visits.
I’ve told my husband, my coworkers, and my friends about this book. Read read read this book if any part of Anna’s story resonates with you. I first watched her on YouTube and thought, wow, that sounds like me. But reading this book has 100% changed my outlook on my past, present, and future, my insights into me, but also everyone else around me. Anna says it early in the book, but I definitely see dsyregulation all
around me now and feel equipped to deal with it!
Thank you Anna for sharing. I feel free.
Linda T/ My Penny’s Worth (verified owner) –
“Re-Regulated” including the Daily Practice which turned out to be the missing puzzle piece to use in combination with meditation that had been helpful, previously, but kind of plateaued for me. January, 2024, Anna’s video appeared on my Youtube stream, serendipitously, and that is one of my favorite ways to discover new things! It took me a few videos before the “penny dropped”… then I realized this ‘is really speaking to me’… it’s what I’ve been dealing with most of my life… on my own more so than not.
Now, I had names and words (dysregulated or crap fit, to name a few), to attach to my symptoms! It’s her down to earth story that has certain elements that are so relatable to what I experienced, which makes it easier to apply to my own life to improve. The book is a wonderful extension of her videos and her website! It’s something tangible that I can pick up at any time and work through all of the activities to help me continue improving! The cover feels very soothing to the touch, as well. I, also, appreciate that the book is for those of us who are more spiritual or not.
My son was so interested in the subject matter that he bought the audio version, as well. I thought this was really cool! I’m hoping it will lead to more discussion in the future. I’m so happy it found me!
Sunflower (verified owner) –
I loved this book. I bought this book because I felt stuck in a swamp of despair. This book gives very practical advice to help get you out of chaos. I highly recommend.